Monday, August 21, 2006
hey.
today's kinda ok but the sad yet funny part was lao shi and 2g talked about the nj thing. doesn't really apply to me at all coz im leavin and all but heck, i thought i'd give my opinion on it. and i
would like to tel l maxine too, about what i think of her decision. don't mind what i say kay? what i think is probably the best for you, under these circumstances now. (:
another thing. i have no idea how come lao shi suddenly mentioned about me and nat thought i was going to
INDIA!! gosh. i was so freaked! and dunno what POLYGAMY thing...sigh..haha. kinda funny though. didnt' hear lao shi coz i was engrossed with talking about yiling. XD
okay, so here's what i think about the nj thing:
well, first off, i don't think that the mainstream people are bad at all. i don't see what's wrong with them. i mean, they're alot smarter than us in a whole lot of way. and lao shi's right about the catching up not catching up thing. its not our responsibility as students. we're only called
smarter coz we're in the SBC class which i think offers us a more vigorous programme that's all.
its not that the mainstream girls aren't capable of doing what we're doing. personally, i think
that they are better than us if they were to take our place in SBC in sec 1. but i think this part most 2g people think that way too, so i shall move on.
well, then there's also the bonding thing. ok, i know we've spent 2 years together, and we've
really REALLY bonded as a class. but remember, we weren't like that at the start of sec 1. we've
only been able to be like this coz of the 2 years we've spent together. then why is it so hard to be able to go through all that again if you are able to make more good friends like we are now? is making new friends really such a crime? everyone needs to have friends, if we didn't then there
wouldn't be this problem anymore. plus those mainstream girls are not people whom we don't
know. they're mostly coming from 2e. people like astrid, ivfen, nic heng, xiao hui. they're all the
people we know, at least most of us know them . and they're really fun people to be with. we
were in the same class once too you know. (to those from mg primary) so why is it so hard to
accept them into our class next year? for those of you going to nj, its going to be evern WORSE
then having the mainstream come in. its a completely new enviroment with people whom you
don't know at all. but i won't deny the fact that even though most of us are on friendly terms
with the mainstream people, i guess, there'll probably still be a seperation of former SBC girls
and the mainstream. its only natural, its not like our class isn't split up now either. and about the thing on Mr Yeo's promise, what i can say for him is that no one expected that this would
happen. i don't believe that some time in your life that you would make a promise and somethin
just had to break that promise of yours. do you think that the school wanted us to think that way? do you think they actually wanted to make the mainstream girls come into SBC.
anyway, to maxine:
about your decision on going to nj. i have to remind you that i know you have issues with the mainstream girls, but they're all people you know max. i don't believe that you have something
so big against them. they were in your class once too. and you were friends with them you know. im not saying that you know all of them. but the fact that you were friends once, but now you
talking about them as if they are super inferior to you. is that something that you would want to
say about a friend? i know i wouldn't want to. and i believe you know them better than i know
them. what's so bad about making new friends? its not like they would kill you or something.
i know you may be offended by what im saying and im not saying that what you're saying
about the mainstream people are wrong, its just your opinion. but i would like you to at least
back up your opinion with some evidence. i know that there are some things in life where you
just can't find a reason to explain, but i dont' believe that this is one of it.
and don't forget. if you already have issues with our mg's mainstream girls, there are neighbourhood people in nj. i mean no offense to neighbourhood shcool people, i have nothing
against you. think about it maxine. its not going to be easy adapting to the life in nj you know.
i can't say that i like neighbourhood people, but i can't say i hate them either. sure, sometimes
what they do can make me feel abit irritated and disgusted, but its not like what i do gets liked
by everyone else either. they're people too, just grown up a little differently from us.
one thing i've learnt being in mg for about 8 years is to respect people and be sincere to them. i
trust that if you know me, you should know that i trust people easily, (not a very good thing)
and that im sincere to them. (sorta) im not trying to be ego, but its true that i backstab people,
quite alot of people actually. and i just go on living with them like they're the best friends of my
life. just thinking about it now makes me disgusted at myself. being a backstabbing moronic idiot freak. i can't say that i won't continue backstabbing and talking bad about people. but what im
trying to do is focus more on their good points and less on their bad. it makes things easier that
way. everyone will be a whole lot happier. i can't deny that gossiping is a very enjoyable thing to
do, but to me, it doesn't feel right. i can't be 'emily of emerald hill', i can't stand the thought of me being nice to a person in her face but gossiping about her behind her back. i don't know if you
guys think of me this way. but for me, i'd really appreciate it if you'd tell me the bad things
about me, then i'll be able to change that part of me. maybe saying this is a bad thing about me,
but i guess writing this is kind of my personality, and i feel better after writing this.
so i final thing i want to say is that im sorry if i offended anyone by saying this, especially maxine
what i feel is all written up there. and i'd really really hope that you would reconsider your decision about nj. you're the one of the two people whom i don't want you to leave mg. coz i think
that mg can provide you with the best 10 years of education you can ever hope for. (but that's
what i think) but i have to right to make you stay or anything, especially that i will be gone too,
but if you still think that nj is the best choice for you, i'll respect that. and i'll wish you all the best
next year, and to all the people going to nj too. i just hope that you made the right choice. and i
believe that you have. (: and for those staying in mg, don't fret, MG's still da BEST. and its easierfor me to come visit you too! =P
okay. its 12 now. gotta go sleep. bleah. gotta wake up early tmr. cya! ((:
<33333 ya 2G!
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